We can never forget..

Do you still remember the first time you were in love? The fondness of you both that anyone can't steal from both of you? The sleepless nights because you're sending text messages with all its sweetness and unbreakable promises? The climax of your story that you want to go back over and over again.


But what if one day, all those fondness, promises, and sleepless nights turns to an excruciating pain that you never imagined that it will be happening, can you accept it? Can you handle it? Or you will be holding on without knowing that you're depriving yourself? Are you strong enough to set him or her free?


And to think that your precious times together were just stolen moments, that you're sacrificing yourself for the sake of his own happiness. That loving him and making him happy is all that means to you?


Feelings and emotions may change but it doesn't feel that you don't feel for each other anymore right? Love is life. Love is not a game to play with, because when love gives its consequences, it's between life and death. If love were only just feelings, then there's no such thing as lasting. Sometimes in love, you need to give up it's happiness and give in its bitterness. 

Letting go isn't just

a one time thing.

It's something you need

to do everyday,

over and over

again. ♥

Consequences and Regrets..

I've been trapped for almost 2 weeks now of non-explainable emotions that comes from within. I felt this times that I'm already facing my consequences from the past. I didn't even noticed it in the first place why did i do that. Sigh...


Of course, as what have knew about consequences, it hurts, deeply. It's like I'm one of those birds that keeps on avoiding the hunters so that I could still preserve my life. 


Now I proved it that love was, and is really unfair. 


You know why? Because, all I thought people forgives but, never forgets. But if you really love the person, are you willing to forget the bad past and accept what is she now? 


The person who's new, bold and true person that you want to be with. The person who gives all your happiness. The person who accepts for who you are with your complications, your pain, your secrets, your longings, and your dreams and took you seriously with all her heart without exemptions.


It's even more beautiful if you learn how to forgive right? It's even more beautiful if you know how to thank that she already changed not just for you, but also to herself. It's even more beautiful if know how to accept and know that the best thing for now is you and her were together happily, without grudges and heartaches. 

Dust to dust, Shoulder to shoulder, Back to back...

Now that I don't have the right upon you, I'm just your friend. A friend that could love you till the end. I miss you very much. Even if I can't stand the hurt that I'm feeling, but it's your happiness.
So what can I do, but to let you go.
We did not make it. *cry* But I'm still hoping soon. I would still be here. Loving you silently. Pretending being happy, but I could never be.
I won't be in a relationship for now. I still have a lot of hopes that you will gonna come back again. I just want to stay like this. Remembering all the good times that we've shared. 
You can't spell LOVE in the first place. Coz' LOVE is an expression that you can't tell. It's a deep emotion came from within. 
This is the second time that I felt in my heart torn apart. The sad thing is, the second time was the worse one. I did not expect that it will happen.
But people changed. You can't dictate them what you want them to do.


You know, I was planning of going home and continue  my studies there but, I'm almost in the finish line. 
I will never be became coward again. I will try standing on my own foot. I will learn how to make things up. It's not even the end pf something. I still don't know if I could take this one and finally let go. Maybe I will just sit in front of a million crowd and sit silently like nothing happened. 

I really don't know now why is it I'm feeling like this. Why is it that I can't be mean to him? Why is it every time mistakes come, it's always my fault. :( 


For now, I don't know exactly what should I say here, but through my sadness, I feel like I want to BOOST here. :( 

A Day

March 11, 2011, Wednesday, 7:00 pm, at Kota Kinabalu International Aiport Terminal 2. This day for him was a day of I DON'T KNOW. Haha! 


But for me, it was a day of Purity, Success, Strategy, and Happiness. Well, I'm very proud of my boyfriend. Usually, I don't introduce someone to my parents especially when I'm not sure of it. But, fortunately this boyfriend was a very good one. I don't know how to describe him. Haha! to me he is a very special person. Not just only a boyfriend, but family, friend, best friend, ALL. 


Love is not just anything but it's everything. :)

Cherish the Ones We Have

Does anyone who don't have a favorite cartoon character? I bet don't have! Every little kid have their own favorite cartoon character.

Like me, my favorite cartoon characters are: Tom and Jerry, Popeye the Sailor Man, Looney Toons, Sponegebob Squarepants, and Doraemon. Have you ever thought of being like them? Or be with them in the movies? Play and laugh with them? I know you did.

Being a kid is the most beautiful times that every person has. But, not all have given the opportunity to be a kid. They did not play in the rain, play with kids or, play with their toys. How sad to think of it.

Every person have the right to undergo of being a kid. If a person haven't passed this, they will find ways by their own. Age doesn't matter for them. They don't even felt shyness among the people who will see them. 

This is the reason why God made the first step of living was the CHILDHOOD. So that you could see how beautiful life was. Cherish it! :)

How?

Well, life was full of ups and downs. Broken hearts are common in the first place. But healing it is the hardest part. 


I know almost all of us have gone through broken hearts especially when it comes to LOVE. Love is the symbol of two people committed in one particular time, place, and date. I'm not saying that you call this as MARRIAGE, but this is also for COUPLES. Like boyfriends and girlfriends. 


It hurts right, when you boyfriends and girlfriends fight because of MISUNDERSTANDING, JEALOUSY, PROBLEMS, and ETC. Have you ever think that you've been taken for granted? Or being left alone? Let's just say they bid goodbye to you slowly and surely that you will feel the pain and hurt.


Now I will ask you this question,"How to mend a Broken Heart?" How will you gonna give back the memories that both of you made through better and worse? How will you gonna be the girl or man that fought for the love that you've made? 


HOW?